Santa, Santa, grant me 3 wishes!

Ho Ho Ho! Christmas just went passed like that! Amist all that frantic preparation and a long long day, it started with a mini fun party and then ended with me working over the computer for my presentation tomorrow. My my... me and my time management... hmm....

I did something out of the norm yesterday -- i msged ALMOST everyone on my contacts, sending them my Christmas greetings. Many of them are happy to hear from me. Many are friends whom I had not contacted for years... opps... I guess my time zone is much slower eh... Well, at least I do msg them what!

Trainings early in the morning had made me slowly evolving into an early bird. I said SLOWLY! But I do enjoy waking up in the morning, driving around to Baby's, then make him drive us to work, rushing through breakfast, sometimes skipping breakfast and finally walk into office being so professional.... haha its so fun and nice. I like! Its like getting a headstart, though he'll not graduated until another 2 and a half years.. but it is nice having a partner at work and since we meet during work, he cannot complain I have no time for him, right? Muahaha.... (evil lala hatching evil plans)

But now since I'm just started in my job and I emptied my pocket to get my hands on this irresistable mac, I'm seriously broke. Need my baby to feed me le.... *opens my mouth* I'm sure he'll gladly push me away. 

Nah, I'll have my own ways to conjour money... I always have a knack for that! 

Ok, now, I have to start racking my brains over resolutions for next year. This time round, I finally feel that I can achieve my resolutions next year!! Happy and excited!!!

Lazy everything..

I've been lazy to blog =) Everytime when i write, i tend to want to make my blog interesting but I find that my life's not that interesting... or maybe cos i'm the one living in it, it does not seem interesting at all?

Well, i'm at a turning point of my life now cos I'm into a tough business that may lead me to my dreams or leave me as i originally was.. wont want to waste my time... but still... my future seems so uncertain. 

I bought a new macbook recently. Officially became a mac noob! Beats me, what made me do the switch but I am really happy with my purchase though it has reduced me to more torn and tattered rags.. its a pure and nice white, sitting on my table, in contrast to the messy surroundings, its simple and yet had the sophisticated feel. Gosh, I'm really in love with my mac. (minus the frustrations of trying to get the shortcuts right) Its a good thing that I realised some of my msn friends are fellow users of mac.. keke... made my transition a little better.

I wanna go fishing today =( Weather was good the whole morning and early afternoon... finally, a break after weeks and weeks of pouring... As if He thinks that Singapore is thirsty after so many millions of years... weather has gone bersek!

Am running out of ideas to entertain me, though i really have a HUGE pile of school work to rush... No motivation to finish things off.. Dreadful.

Tml's a shopping day. Gonna get a party going for Christmas =) Rainbow Christmas!! Yipee!!

Same time frame, different time zone..

I'm amazed. People amazed me. I am highly intrigued by people who are so fantastically clever and yep manage to have time in the world to do other things like blogging (to me, seriously, taking up a lot of my time!), outings, clubbing, all these on top of MUGGING!! Gawd~ I hate mugging.

Currently reading my M9 notes. So thick a book.. for a week.. I must be mad to arrange the exam timeline so near to each other. I must be mad...

Alright, studies aside, I guess these few days, I'm undergoing self reflection. There are a lot going on in my mind, a lot of self doubt and questions. There are some changes that I need to undertake to improve my life or rather, to ensure that my life is more smooth sailing in the future. However, to execute these actions, I would need to be determined! A-ja A-ja Fighting!

Baby's been moody. I guess i'm not a good gf afterall.. I didnt make his life easy when he showed me his temper. hmm.. something I must change. I realised that I've changed. I dunno what brought about the change in me but I evolved to someone more self-centred in the relationship. I end to close up within myself, rather than open my heart fully. Why? I do so want to be happy and blissful in e relationship. Is it wrong timing? I dunno.. there's a lot of questions that I myself cant answer and all the more I cant discuss with him cos he'll think negatively but I know that he'll read this. At least, what I cant say, he could read.. At least.

Now, must think of some therapy for Baby. Recently his nick changed to JoeJoe. So Cawaiii!!! haha.. well, joejoe he needs some therapy from lala so that he can feel happy. Hmm.. what can I do? Need to crack my head over this in Lala land.. wahaha.. okie night night..

Long Long time away from the blogsphere. Miss me? Hehe.
Had done quite a number of things. Like travelling to HK, shopping non stop till the moment I'm on the plane. Haha, hilarious things during the trip... playing and eating and growing fat.

Then spent a lazy afternoon on one of the Sundays, trying to sun ourselves at Changi Sailing Club. Fantastic!

I hardly write now a days.. weird... Its like I used to write frequently but when it comes to writing on the blog, I cant motivate myself enough.. haha.. probably cos I wish to add more of photos... but never take more pics leh =(

Sat, when to Joycelyn's house for her birthday party. Brings back some memories and also some disappointments..

One year back, our group formed during my birthday.. I guess mainly cos we had more time and were swinging singles. We partied and play and club like there's no tomorrow.. Tiring but good fun. Miss those days. But hey, people has to grow up! I have made out my plans for my future. I hope following THE plan, I would reach the financial freedom that I desire.

My first baby step starts with me taking the M5 exams. My gawd~! Darn boring text to read ok! Still, I'm giving myself a pat in the back for being able to pass it =) happy~
Now, gotta prepare for my M9 and HI. Many Many things to occupy me while Joejoe is busying himself with his books. Poor baby, exams always falls on his birthday. Blows kisses to you to cheer u up! Jiayou!

I fear for what I cannot see...

I started on this book, named PS I Love You, written by Cecelia Ahern yesterday when I was trying to escape mugging.

Reading through the first few chapters and it brought tears to my eyes. I'm not a fan of crying but there is some where within me where fear of losing someone or something resides. I remember vividly when I was very young, my mummy used to hug me to sleep and sometimes she would ask me what will I do if she's gone. I still remember the exact feeling I have when she asked me that question - hopelessly sad. Whenever I thought seriously about any of my loved one leaving me forever, I would tear...

People who knew me know that I am a tough nut that do not tear easily, except for some things that really struck my raw nerve. Reading that storybook did. When the main character, Holly's husband, Gerry, died, my heart went all out to her. I could feel her sadness, her helplessness and her emptiness. To add on to the pain, Gerry was a very loving and humorous guy who left a monthly note behind after his passing so as to help Holly stand up and face a whole new life - a life without him.

I am so sure that if I am Holly, I would be crying myself dry, especially each time I read a new note from him... OMG... sentimental Lala tonight.. crap. It must be the night la!

Right, before I end my entry, I would like to thank Joycelyn for lending me her book. Alright, I'll go battle with my text again.... argh...

updates

I feel like coming online to write down my thoughts before I head of to sleep. I know that Baby will surely scold me but he is soundly asleep in his bed. How I wish I could sleep beside him too ~~ Wanna hug hug =(

Few days back, on Sat, we went over to his friend's house, Ben's to return and borrow more comics. I would have lost a chance to have a nice chat with someone I just knew if I had decided to sit in the car and waited.

Ben is a trainee teacher. However, i find that he is really good at analysing people and have the guts to just tell the person straight in the face. He got my personality right, the moment he saw me... i was stunned for a while by his ability. How I wished I had that eye too... can pick out details at a glance. Nice..

It was a nice night of chatting, almost about anything under the stars. Should have more time to talk, then I could dig out some past of Baby! *pouts*

Well, although we had to leave cos it was getting too late, I still had a nice time and nice meeting you, Ben!

Nowadays, my Baby has lesser time for me cos of school. *Sulk* but I'm not complaining cos I know that if he do well, he can earn more next time for our future. Keke. I know Baby is doing his best to keep me company le. happy still =)

I myself have to do well man... have to bark myself to study and sleep early. Today is not a good example, keke. There's still so much to do - manicure, revision, tuition, lots and lots of other little things to do... Time Management!!!!

Extension of Monday blues - Tues blues

My life is going down hill.. battling with my chubbiness, my work without the satisfaction, studies stress and the lost feeling of not knowing what to do after my graduation. Seriously, where do I stand in this world? Who is my guide? Who CAN be my guide?

My little pea of a brain is thinking hard of what I can be in the future. Can I be successful like JK Rowling, with just spinning out a magical tale that everyone licks up happily, just like addicts to drugs? Can I be as successful like any other CEOs of an enterprise and rack in the millions? Can I ever lead a happy ever after life, enjoying the pleasures in life with my loved one? Can I? What makes them stand out from the others? or are they just pure lucky with their lives, taking one correct step and jumped all the way to the top.

I am not greedy. I need not be at the top, but at least let me be near the top. I want a comfortable life without ever being reminded of my Daddy's sad face, the day I saw the only 2 dollars in his wallet. My Daddy has come a long way. Salute to my Daddy, he has made some progress while I'm still struggling to stand on my walk, to follow in his footsteps or to make new ones of my own.

Baby, will you help me? Will you hold me when I am so hurt from falling down again and again? Can I trust in you to take care of me when I'm totally worn out and frustrated? Will you shout at me when I shout? Or will you shout with me?

I Love You Because...

I love you because you are sensitive to my feelings.
I love you because you will give me 100 miss calls when I dun pick up.
I love you because you will walk in the sun to buy me lunch when I am upset.
I love you because you always hold me close to you.
I love you because you will travel to my house to kiss me good morning.
I love you because you will kiss me even when I'm angry.
I love you because I see tenderness in your eyes whenever I look at you.
I love you because your smile is so cute, though I dun always admit it.
I love you because you are always there to catch me before I fall.
I love you because you will play cards with me with lots of nonsense penalties.
I love you because you will cook my favourite dishes for me.
I love you because you will get drunk with me.
I love you because you are very strong willed and have loads of perserverence to spare.
I love you because you will be my Butler, my Ahmad, my Bartender and my Bodyguard.
I love you because you will drag me to gym though I'll complain so much.
I love you because you have the ability to influence me.
I love you because you will bring me to watch sunset in sentosa on ad hoc basis.
I love you because you love my family.
I love you because you love me dearly.
Lastly,
I love you because of who you are and who you will be.
I LOVE YOU!

some rantings

I hardly have the time to update but when I do, there is so many things to write.

Well, I'll just point out only the interesting stuff.

Prawning !!! My siblings and I + Joe (stowaway...lol) decided to do some late night prawning at the prawn farm at Taman Jurong. After 3 hours and $52 damage to our pockets, we returned home happily with.....5 prawns!

Alright, Alright, I know. 5 prawns nia..... But its our first time trying to catch prawns with rods. Give credit la!

Then Baby cooked the 5 prawns for me -- ALIVE! We had a whale of a time squealing when the prawns jumped around, here and there. You see, we were trying to cook drunken prawns (yummy!!!!) but we were dying of hunger so we didn't wait for the prawns to die by themselves. Besides, I thought drunken prawns are "poisoned" by alcohol alive?? (pardon me lack of knowledge)

Well, in the end the prrrrrrrr-awns were delicious! Yum! I love my baby's marination!

Teaching Catwalk
Roger (one of my bosses --its a complicated story) sent me to DBS to teach some of the staff how to catwalk for their anniversary event that is coming up. It was easy teaching them and they took instructions well. Best of all, I earned $100 just for that hour of job! Nice~

That reminds me-- I found out that Nora was approached by Fly Academy to teach basic catwalking. Nora is Winner of glamour quest contest in 2002. You can see her pic and also mine here at his super old website(http://ch8c.mediacorptv.com/shows/starnews/view/899/1/.html)... During the days of Ford Models' competition.

She was very young but when I worked with her, I find her really someone that is very practical to a point of bitchyness.
I hardly find people irritating but she is someone who I particularly cant stand her spastic-ness. To think that she has got the brains and boobs. I do admit that her walk is good. But then, that was the classic catwalk style - to walk like a horse. Hey! I mean that literally! International models DO walk like horses, mind you!

Anyways, that's her style. Dun get me wrong. I'm not very upset about her just that talking about Ford Model competition, she was the one that initiated to ask the winner (Whoever it will be then) to give treats to all cos the winner will get 10k cash prize! Well.. of cos that did not came true once she was crowned the winner. ( Think back of her face then when she said all those words irked me). She clever, but not at all well loved. Roger kept mentioning her to me as if I would like to know any news about her...

Well, I've not seen her for a few years now. Hopefully she changed for the better.

Love Love Love!

Love... Any one can fall in love..Even if the person seems so insignificant in this vast world.. Love is still for that person. Its for you, you and you!

I just realise that even an ugly person can be so happily in love. No, I'm absolutely and seriously not mocking at anyone or being sarcastic. Its just that I was browsing this girl's profile on friendster and I realise how happily in love she is. The thing is that she is neither pretty nor slim. But she looks really blissful and happy. That is happiness.

I am blessed with good looks and beautiful people around me but sometimes, I'll be so overwhelmed with my own desires, that I'll be too upset to notice the beautiful things around me. This is exactly what people mean by taking things for granted.

So what if I'm getting fat? I am still better than others who cant bulk up due to illness. I am still far better than those born with disability. I shouldn't be unhappy about anything since I am given all the wonderful gifts of life. So what reasons do I have to be unhappy? Nothing at all!!

Lalala... thanks to all the wonderful people and things around me. I love you all!

To Baby

I'm frustrated with you. Quite frustrated.

As the days go by, I realise that you are pushing me further and further from love. I cant communicate well with you anymore. Each time, we end up being unhappy. When I asked why you are unhappy, you just kept ur silence. You know its not gonna help but yet you still held ur tongue. Why?

"You always missed the point",you replied to my relentless naggings.

Then, why dont you tell me what is the point?? Why?

Its so frustrating trying to crack my head, thinking of what could be wrong when all I did was just to pop up the window of my msn and read what my male friend just msn me. I didn't even reply him! So... what's the point? What reason is there for your reaction? I've never expected myself to be so trapped in a relationship.

Few weeks ago, you DRAGGED me all the way to Sentosa and did not tell me in advance of where we are heading, leaving me to happily assume that I can go shopping after doing my roadshows. I was so pissed that I really felt like walking away there and then. You didnt realise.
I was in sneakers and SOOOOOOOoooo not in the mood to watch sunset.

Did you realise that you perfectly spoiled a potential romantic evening?

"But you can do shopping later! The shops will open late but sunset cant wait!" That's your reason.

I felt like slapping you in the face. I cant believe how insensitive you've become towards my feelings. How can sunset be good when I'm not in any mood to watch it? I thought you should understand. You thought that I was okay afterwards. Did you actually know how much prep talk I have to tell myself to calm myself down and prevent me from kicking you into the sea?
Gosh. Man. Idiotic creatures.

If it wasnt for you, if it wasnt that I knew how much you loved to watch the sunset, I would have stomped off. Mind you, not once had I felt so thoroughly angry at such a supposedly-romantic act.

Every weekend, you had to rush me to do my roadshows. It made me think that you dun realise how important it is that I have to do things right cos I am answerable to Clarence if anything wrong happens and I didnt take note of. I feel so breathless --- in a bad way, that I had to be rushed to do my work. You said that its for my own good, so that I can have more time to do my own things. But.... you didnt bother to explain until last weekend. How many weekends have I been frustrated? You just left things be.

I feel that you like to rush me. On the contary, I like to take things slow and relaxing. You know that but yet you chose to upset me cos ITS FOR MY OWN GOOD. I agreed with you... so I went along with your decisions.

However, it is so uncalled for when you sound upset cos I spent longer time than expected at my Grandpa's house! This is absolutely ridiculous. I know that you cant help it to not feel good as you'll rather I rest at home or do my own things. But, understand that I can make my own decisions! If i say I'm gonna spend longer time there, I'm gonna. I thought you were understanding when you told me to enjoy my dinner there BUT the first thing you asked when I called you back home was, " I thought you were there just to show face, why you took so long?"

GOODNESS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........
Do I always have to explain myself? Do I have to? I hate to explain myself. Especially for such things that are self-explanatory! Cos I wanted to spend more time there!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are many other things that along the way, it will cause our communication with each other to breakdown and wear out my patience. I have no courage to say these to you face to face as I know you would sigh like there's no tomorrow and show me the face that I absolutely dread to see.

Baby, there are problems accumulating... can you see? You really used to understand me so well that I need not open my mouth for you to read my mind. What happened to that? We are unhappy with each other more and more. Its making me lose control of myself sometimes. I feel so trapped... so restricted that I cant even visit my relatives without feeling upset.
If you wanted to see me, just tell me directly. You do not need to ask me why I was there for such a long time. Everything would have started off at a wrong note. I would love to make you happy but what happened to our happiness? Why are we getting more and more unhappy with each other? I dread to think that one day either of us cant take it anymore and walks away..

Lethargic

Been feeling lethargic recently.

There is so many things to do I realise but all the things that NEEDED me to complete are NOT fun!!! I need fun things to do.. like playing beach games... block catching... chalet.. chillout...

Damn, I'm deprived.

I heard that Mike's birthday is near, so the bunch of us are going to be drink drank drunk at his place as usual. They already "choped" my time for that night.. so I have no excuses to be absent. I guess they really missed me when lala was busy struggling with her work.

Busy but there's no job prospects.. so worried for myself.. what am I to do when I graduate??

Then recently I developed a great sense of missing my past glamour life. I miss modelling... I miss acting.. How I wish I could do all these again.. but alas.. time has taken its cruel toil on me.. I'm older and fatter...etc.. etc..

Parties make me jealous of the pretty adolescents who has so much of youth in them and their slim structures. Regrettably, I should have maintained myself well though I have lost touch with the glam world. Definitely must do something abt it to lose my fats and all...


So, if there's any one interested to offer me a contract, please be quick yah.. me waiting!

No time.. No time...

Many things happened again throughout my absence in the blogsphere...

I am robbed of the luxury of the time to come online and write down my thoughts.

Today's my sister's birthday but I'm so not in the mood to help her celebrate. There's so many things to be done and so many tasks undone that I am so bothered by my own things to manage. My job is getting more taxing and I felt so trapped. I hate my time management and I hate myself for complaining when I can change things NOW.

Fine. Basically, I'm a mood person.
Good mood -- work well.
Bad mood -- Forget it.

ROAR!

I want my holiday. I want my trip to Taiwan. KL trip did not make up the emptiness I felt when I know I cant go taiwan. Worse still... someone's so calculative that I feel like smacking him.
Hopefully,... hoping.... I can go Taiwan.. best still... Japan.. by the end of this yr or the next..

Alright, I dun think this is the right mood for me to write. I'll go fuss around sis, probably she'll feel better. The BBQ we planned better get done...Waste baby's effort to marinate, waste sis effort to buy.. waste everyone's effort ... ROAR.. I hate the rain.

I realised that I'm not blogging as often as I expect myself to be. Probably due to the fact that if I can keep out of the computer, I WOULD.
Reason for the phobia? I had to do a lot of work using the computer. I think my eyes are gonna pop out soon!

As I got older, I realise that I have lost the urge to constantly write. But, I still write, especially when I am down. When I'm upset, I seem to have "word vomit". Means that words just come pouring out of my head. Weird huh.. but I guess that's what they mean by authors writing with inspiration.

In secondary sch, I'll spend hours every night, writing my diary, jotting down my thoughts for the day, basically reporting my life to a book. Now, I cant afford the time to sit down and write and write for hours cos I NEED to sleep! (I'm always late for work, that's why =P)

The Scream party at Cafe Del Mar was only okay. It was not as fun as I expected it to be. I guess its no fun when its only me, baby, and the girls. Our promoters were there to promote K810i so we took photos and printed them out in postcards form using the sony photo printers. The printers are awesome! The pictures are nice and I like~ Ann, Mel and I agree that we'll paste our pictures all over in the office... haha... just to make someone jealous. *opps*

I had a craving to go dip in the jacuzzi... Cant find one... had to curb my urge then... so unhappy.
My poor poor baby had to take the blunt. He's so poor thing.. had to put up with me screaming at him.....Sorry baby. (my temper's really bad.. will try to keep it in check ok? Muacks love ya!)

Then today, we rented dvd from the Play kiosk. Its so expensive I think! $4.50 for 3 days rental.. Whoa.. a bit ex hor. Somemore the dvds are from Poh Kim la... the newspaper reported that Poh Kim sold pirated dvds too.. I'm not surprised if its dirt cheap.. and yet the machine charged us $4.50... SO NOT COMPETITIVE PRICING!! Well, there's another stupid rule! For first time renting, you can only rent one piece. But but... there is 2 pieces of DVD to Death Note 2!!! So in the end, we had to make do with disc one and watch it first. Its quite good I feel but so irritating when it ended la.... I want to watch disc 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROAR!

Nvm... watch tml with Baby.. must keep my hands to myself!

See... What I've found! When out today to play pool... Found this Boon Tong Kee nearby... Serves me pyramid shaped rice. SO cute! And the crispy tou fu... *Licks tongue*

DAMN NICE LAR!

Really Pyramid!



My Humble Fare

Oh and look what I've found yesterday!!

Chickadee Joe!!

Haha. Baby Joey = Chicken Joe

My baby's gonna hide his head somewhere when he sees this.

Or.. He's gonna tell everyone that I slept when we are watching Pirates of the Carribean. Its good I know.. Just that I'm too tired la! Gonna re-watch it again sometime. Keke.

I worked hard. I played hard. Now, after working hard, I'm gonna go to this party!!

Aiyah.. ok la.. I know I know.. I got free party admission that's why I'm going.

Sweet Melissa got me another pass so that Baby can join us at the party and enjoy Gary's songs. We love them so!

SUper WoMan! Super Me!

Busy Bumble Bee

...Me. Happily munching on my BIG BIG Carls' burger. Baby MAde me bite BIG BIG..

Carls' Junior Session @ Vivo, after visiting my roadshow.. gosh.. the portions can feed 3 persons!

Vivo damn big leh... always get lost there.. think we need maps to walk ard there. Its also one of those rare days that I took public with Baby.. all ard orchard for his meeting, then my roadshows.. So proud of myself!

Goodness me!.. You wont believe how busy I am! SOooooo many things to do in a day.. I think I need a break!

Hopefully I can go to KL on Sat.. without any glitches.

My Paper party this Friday.. looking forward to it.. hehe... bet its fun, chilling out at Cafe Del Mar, though the first time I was there, its quite boring. I'm supposed to work there! But I dun think there is much for us to do, other than being 'vases' for the night. Besides, Wati had booked 2 rooms at Shangri La.. might as well drink more and make full use of the room =)

Haiz... Sad Lala is now on strict purse strings. After my talk with the financial advisor... I had only one choice --- expand my income. But HOW?!?! so sad la... my timing is so tied down by my work at SE.. anymore, I feel that I could DIE.... but only feel la... so in actual fact, if I push myself more, I can get more income... Should I work myself to the limits? Hai.. that's the problem with slackers.. We like to have more time for rest and play. Now.. for all my liabilities... NO CHOICE LOR!

On a side note.. actually saving hard is quite fun. Its fun hunting out bargains and quite a good feeling of achievement when you achieved your target. You should try! Besides, Baby says that I'm on strict diet to slim myself down.. so I can save quite a bit. However, having to give up Sakae Sushi SUCKS big time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me love sushi.... I guess if I really want that and not foil my saving plans.. have to SAVE up for it.. sobsobz...

Savings savings... Being poor sucks.

Being poor and still studying SUCKS more.

I wanna be rich princess.. *sulk*

Life

" Life is a picture, it was a white canvas. At the end of life, it is us who painted it but others who view it. At our funeral, all will be crying but who is truely crying over the loss of their truely loved ones? I want to be crying for you so that you have one less pain in life, although I badly wish that you will cry for me too. But, I guess it will be the best if we can finish this picture together..."

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Without you, I would not know how happy I can be.
Without you, I would not have wiped my tears.
Without you, I would not be laughing.
Without you, I would not be cooed to sleep.
Without you, I would not have care when I'm sick.
Without you, I would not have taken my medication.
Without you, I would not have lunches packed.
Without you, I would not have white roses every month.
Without you, I would not have believed in love again.

Lastly,

Without You, there's no Me.

~Happy Lucky Day~

Haven't really been blogging.. keke. Been spending lotsa time away from the comp.. I know that Joey's gonna nag till my ears drop when he sees this entry cos its almost 2am and I need to wake up for work at 7.30!! BUT BUt.. I'm really happy and wanna write something.

Before I begin, I wanna apologise to Baby.. Sorry Baby... I lost my temper yesterday.. I'm sorry. I WILL make it up to you ok? Muacks Muacks!

Today's everything's in my way. However, there was a weird episode at IMM...

My baby spent a lot of time waking me this morning.. (as usual) so that I would prepare for tuition BUT... in the end Daddy says, "Lunch at Thai Village Restaurant."

"Aye Aye Sir!", so i obeyed. Keke. Tuition postponed. Had my tummy filled with delicious food. And also got a tuition assignment from one of the captains there. Ha! Lucky me!

Then off to shopping for girls-know-what! eh... SO paiseh to tell all la... but I had been looking for my Sloggies for damn long... its gonna be phased out BUT its so good la.. (go ask any girls and they'll nod their pretty heads) AND since everything's going my way, I FOUND THEM!! happy happy...

This was my second purchase cos some sick person decide to steal my undergarments. Throughout my stay at my current place, the sick person(s) had been stealing from me. SO horrendous.. Wait till one day I search that person out.. gonna chop off his/her hands!

FINE!!!

Back to my good day. Shopping Shopping whole week. I bought a new top coat from Prorance, a Korean brand. and their package is changed to being so CUTE!! Strangely.. only the top coat and I ONLY wanted to buy top coat. So happy happy... like I always say... little designs steal the girls' hearts. Its true its true.

Talking about Prorance. I personally think that they are better in their cosmetics than Laneige. Their loose powder is VERY fine. And i mean V-E-R-Y fine. Their nail polish is cheap and good! Seriously, I don't know why their distributor did not make it big.. probably cos they have very little stuff.. namely loose powders, make up base, lippies, nail polish, haven't really noticed whether they have eyeshadows.. opps.. but they are really hard to find. Very little place carries them.. Luckily Jurong East Entertainment sells =) PHEW~

Then head to IMM to work and shop somemore.. Was approached by NUS dance group.. they needed tall people to dance apparently. I would love to dance but Baby says that I would have over loaded of committments.. hmm... see how la..

Still, something weird happen on my lucky day -- I distinctively went pass this shop that I saw selling guys stuff and leather bags. I know Baby's looking for one, so I wanted to see whether there's something that suits him. Shuang (my noisy sis) wanted to go Espirit first, so I went with her but we cant find the shop that I wanted to go in anymore. We walked 3 rounds around the first level but there was NO SIGN of that shop! Gosh.. erieeeeeeeee............ The angle where I saw that shop.. its all eateries.. no shop that sells leather and guys' stuff... eeeee....
Shuang further add on to that scariness by telling me that just now when I said I wanted to go into a shop and looked towards that direction, she couldn't see where I was talking abt and was eager to go into Espirit so didnt pay much attention. Talking about spookiness!!

So sad la! I fell sick and haven really recovered. The doctor says that its a virus attack... I secretly think that the virus community hates me.. SOBZZzzz... haha kidding la...

Recently, we ran out of fun things to do! Haiz. Life becomes boring and mundane. Well, it happens... after you studied so hard everyday for that paper... life becomes boring after that. I think one of the possible reasons are that we dont have much friends to play with... Hmmm.. friends are needed to become playthings haha.. Friends are so multi purpose I tell you... so now u know ah... now u know why people MUST have friends.

Give you some scenarios :

1) In Sch -- "Eh... have you finished your homework ah? I need to copy leh...."

2) At Shopping - " Eh, ... How ah? Is this top nice?? Hmm... I think i like it leh... but no money... can borrow not??"

3) At Work -- "Eh, Did you hear what the boss say ah... he say so much.. I blur leh... OH!! U know how to do iszit? Help me lah!"

4) Even in toilet friends are SOOOooo damn good --- " AHHHhhhhh..... SHit..... I need to borrow pad!!!!! Who has??!!!"

SEE? Did I just made my point? Friends are so good! So kiss ur friends when you see them ya. Kiss them hard! haha...

Ok fine.. I'm still bored. Can u believe it? I can be doing a huge pile of work and yet feel bored?! Well, I can.

Boss, dun fire me. But I really can feel that way leh... =P

Suggestions needed.. I need to do fun things. Damn bored already, I'm growing moulds or fungi.. or whatever...

So sad la! I fell sick and haven really recovered. The doctor says that its a virus attack... I secretly think that the virus community hates me.. SOBZZzzz... haha kidding la...

Recently, we ran out of fun things to do! Haiz. Life becomes boring and mundane. Well, it happens... after you studied so hard everyday for that paper... life becomes boring after that. I think one of the possible reasons are that we dont have much friends to play with... Hmmm.. friends are needed to become playthings haha.. Friends are so multi purpose I tell you... so now u know ah... now u know why people MUST have friends.

Give you some scenarios :

1) In Sch -- "Eh... have you finished your homework ah? I need to copy leh...."

2) At Shopping - " Eh, ... How ah? Is this top nice?? Hmm... I think i like it leh... but no money... can borrow not??"

3) At Work -- "Eh, Did you hear what the boss say ah... he say so much.. I blur leh... OH!! U know how to do iszit? Help me lah!"

4) Even in toilet friends are SOOOooo damn good --- " AHHHhhhhh..... SHit..... I need to borrow pad!!!!! Who has??!!!"

SEE? Did I just made my point? Friends are so good! So kiss ur friends when you see them ya. Kiss them hard! haha...

Ok fine.. I'm still bored. Can u believe it? I can be doing a huge pile of work and yet feel bored?! Well, I can.

Boss, dun fire me. But I really can feel that way leh... =P

Suggestions needed.. I need to do fun things. Damn bored already, I'm growing moulds or fungi.. or whatever...

So pissing!!

Artistic? I like the paintings that accentuate the photo. Random.

Still, nice pic doesnt make me feel better!

ROAR!! I really need a Guru in helping me with the blog man..




I cant find the way to do my archive!!!! Angry Angry!!



Anyways, its Wednesday... So means good food day. Why? Cos my Daddy will not be going temple on Wednesday nights, instead, he'll bring us all out for good food. Yummy Yummy! Oh oh... I think i can predict where the needle will point on the weighing machine..


SO this leads to another angry matter.... WHY WHY WHY... why I am getting fat from all the food while others can eat and eat but not get fat?? Why me?? why me?? Fine.. if its should be the way.. I'll ask Joey to zap my fats for me (though I know jolly well.. he'll drag me to exercise)



After dinner, I did something silly... We all wanted to sing out hearts out... so when to K box. BUT its so expensive!!!! Each of us has to pay like 26 bucks!! So out we go and head to arcade.. for some cheap thrills... But Baby wont let me play lots lots.. =~~( He say its a waste of money plus no satisfaction. ROAR! I wan I wan.. Roar Roar!


In the end, no money, no sweets, no prizes.. Sad lala!




Oh, before I forget.. I remember something that made me laugh hard today. My silly baby asked me whether he has decays cos he's visiting the dentist today. Well, I'm bored. So I lied.

"Baby! There's 1...2...3....4....5....6...7.....er....and 8! Oh there are 8 decays! Tsk Tsk!", I played a harmless prank on him.

"Iszit??!?! HUH... How.. so many decays...", my baby face fell.

Not looking at him and trying to muffle my laugh, "Ya lor baby.. need to ask the dentist to fill them up."


After the trip to the dentist....

"ROAR!!! Baby!!! I had only one SMALL TINY PUNY decay! U still say like its SOOOOOo many!!!"

Me : "Keke.. you really believed ah.. "

Baby : "ROAR! I told the dentist that I think I have a lot of decays to fill in... In the end he scold me and say only got one small tiny filling... What the.... "

Me at this time already die-ed and rolling on the floor in laughter.. Muahaha...
Me and my silly Baby Joey. Muacks. Silly baby.

YaHOOOOO Exams OVERRRRR!!

"mmm.. I'm on my 4th piece!"

"You want it dun cha?~"
Dratss..... Joey.. I have a little regret in giving you my blog addy... Now I do have reservations to what I want to post here....

Baby, I've decided, I shall write what my heart desires, no matter whether you'll like it ya.. in this way, I am really myself and this blog would really belong to me.
We celebrated our 5th month anniversary exactly a week ago. (Sad then.. was still in the midst of my mugging )Hmm.. I've never particularly taken notices of monthly anniversaries before.. hence its a whole new experience for me to be taking note of these things. Coz me is very scatterbrain, not the thoughtful xiao nu ren that you'll prefer.. I love more freedom but you love me more than freedom.. so what to do? I have to strike a balance somewhere. You have to compromise ya~

However, you, on the other hand, are sensitive, thoughtful and puts in a lot of effort in pampering ur princess here :) Seriously, I've never thought that I would found another person like you.. Until you stepped into my life, and the first thing you did was to celebrate my birthday with me! We healed each other and filled up for the emptiness previously in our lives. Now we HAVE to concentrate on the future ya.

Ok, dun want to write emo stuff le.

Lets see, what did we do since I finish my stressful exams..
(saying about that exams.. it caused me MAJOR migraine!! Roar! Angry!)
Oh and please be informed that pandols are NOT good for major headaches! I can still feel pain pain!

We went SHOPPING yesterday.. yea.. right after my exams keke. The only limitation is my bank account.. Roar! WHY WHY?? (God please make me a rich girl? Pretty please??) Never bought much also.. cos I am so tired... (never sleep for 2 days) Anyways, I'm still skill-ed lor.. we watched Spidy Man 3 in super air-con-ed Eng Wah cinema. I actually got the premier tickets for us but we cant catch that as we were both having exams.. and finally we caught it! Luckily it never made me throw popcorns! Overall action was good, effects are realistic so that covers up for the ordinary story line I guess.

Almost die-ed from the lack of sleep. We had a long good talk at the reservoir. Now feeling better... then drove home in a groggery state... ROAR! Man, it is the most toturous feeling, I swear! Well, one good thing out of it is that I feel that I can face your past more.
Crashed in bed.. instant DEEP sleep.. my lights are still on and my blankie under me.. I surprised myself at my subconscious protection! My blankie magically crept from under me to cover me!! And the lights are off! (I suspect its my sis's doing)

And the results?... Freak! I woke up at 3 pm!!!!!!!!!! cool.. I woke up to Baby's msges.. Somebody misses me when I'm soundly asleep.. haha..

Guess what I had for dinner? Goodness me.. Its crab bee hoon ok! LONG craved crab bee hoon.. I drove all the way to AMK for it! I think I'm crazy. Slap me from this dream.... and i'll burp my crab bee hoon into your face i tell you! Muahaha.. Well, enjoy my pics.. while I go enjoy my movie of "200 pounds of beauty" (console myself for being fat!)

We got into an argument today... really hate the hassle of quarrelling over little things. I rather be silent or not talk or walk away.

Sometimes, I do feel suffocated by his ways of restraining me. I need my wings, I need my sky and I need to breathe! Probably he is too young to understand that? Or is it just his family culture? I dunno the answer to that question yet... but I could tell that he is willing to change himself for me..

A leopard will never change its spots... is this true or could be proven wrong by him?

My baby, looking smart in formal attire eh?

(PS: Dun ask me why I put such cheery pictures when I'm not writing about happy things.. Its the mood swing eh, just go with the flow! Hah!)

Four and a half months..

Four and a Half months since I plunged into this relationship and yet I feel more and more insecure. I knew this would happen.. and it only meant one thing--- I've fallen for him.

I would get jealous over every little thing.. his past... his friends... This is so uncool! I had tried to keep away from the other gender ever since my painful past relationship.. yet this dude came along and took my hand with him...

Why? WHy?? why did I allow myself to be so vulnerable? Deep inside, I know that he is still an unpolished gem.. he needs more polishing before he can shine and put in sunshine in my life...

Recently, I read some past testi that he wrote in his past... it spelt of lasting love.. yet that did not come true... Now, to me, he promised me lasting love... how am I to believe that it will come true? Indeed, after some probing, I realised that his defination of love is different from mine.. For me, I would stick to the person that I love till my heart really dries up over time... and that would take years.. BUT.. for him... he would love forever but with conditions...

I am truly upset by this. It meant that he does not understand the true meaning of love. It is to give unconditionally. Yet, the sole reason why I am worried over this fact was because I am afraid of getting hurt again... I am also a selfish one... why?... I dun understand anymore.
Should I continue this relationship or just end it to avoid getting hurt?

It is just 4 and a half months after all... Why am I thinking so much?

Mood Swing Time

Its freaking 2 weeks before my exams... and here I am surfing the net, writing blogs, viewing friendster, instead of doing anything constructive to help me in my exams.

I'm so moody now.

He can't keep me company today cos his parents are back the first thing tomorrow morning.. and his sister is staying at her bf's..... The rational me knows that it is only right that he stays home to welcome his parents but my emotional side is angry with that fact. Haiyo.. became so needy all of a sudden when I had worked so hard to changed my personality to be so independent.

Changing is not easy. I had to put in a lot of effort and unhappiness to come out of my comfort zone, to become independent of bfs... to become more driven.... Yet, he wishes that I could be more 'sticky'... At this moment, I still do not wish to give up everything that I had worked so hard to change... not changing baby... not yet... not when I have not really fallen head over heels with you...